Restless Memories
I
Prologue
Gahan Sabz is a man from the dark old days. From the hollow human world which there is nothing to see and understand, from the heart of frozen hearts and cold memories and life, from the mean streets and wild of mankind. Asphalt jungles and disturbed world which human made by their bloody hands.
Gahan sabz is a 79 years old man with a heavy bag of memories from white days to darkest days of a life that a human can have. With this a dozen of problems Gahan believes that he is living in a Green World and he like to see everything green and white, not because of he had a hard life, not because of he was not a complete successful man in his life, not because of many other thing, Because he finally could found his origin and he understood who he is. He forgot his love, and many other things to can have this truth and today even with his ordinary life he is happy with that.
Nowadays he is living in San Frasisco and he is painting and drawing from his memories and every morning he sells his works to earn money as much as he can. HE has great life and he is happy with his life, as he said: “I have a boundless life with a warm heart in my house.”
But why Gahan believes that the world that we are living inside it, it is a hollow world without any end, without any meaning. All are related to his dark journey through the cold and mean world of human. He believe that Human Is the most brutal creature in the earth.
Brutal Legend of gahan sabz started from the heart of art.
II
Missed Memento
8 years after Gahan born in New York City in 1931 his father killed in the mean streets of that twisted frozen city by police and police record everything Gahan father’s had in their houses, and gahan couldn’t keep only a pen from his Iranian father. Great Depression in those years was made life Hard and brutal for himself and his mother until her Italian mother, Rosa, decided to return to her mother’s lands. The city of arts in the seas. Venice. They had a long and hard trip to that city. Childhood of Gahan is the city of Venice or on the other hand Venicia! Near florance the city of arts and artist people such as mikel angel.
Gahan and her mother were in a boundless house which her mother everyday brought happiness into his heart and made him happy, life was so hard those days but gahan’s mother working hard and gahan was trying to be great son for his mother and one day become a rich and educated man.
She comes every night / nothing left to say about her beauty / with those roses on her hands / I closed my eyes and she passed away in a split second / I did not know who she is / In my dreams she does not exist / I love her perfume / It smells faith and beliefs /
Piece of a brilliant poem that Gahan inspired when he was only eleven years old for his mother birthday. Mother was everything for gahan. She was his god.
III
The Secret Worlds & Spotless Minds
Gahan’s Mother sent him to a violin class in Venice. Everyday gahan learn step by step to how to play violin and everyday he was playing for her mother after dinner. Gahan and his mother had a strange neighbour that sometime he came in their house and they were eating dinner to gather. He was a old man, around 45 years old and whole the day he was parenting kind of strange drawing, such as a lot of dead bodies and ripped corpses in a colourful garden, or in a beautiful place. He believes that, this is the end of world, which human would be destroying by nature. Beside that the gahan’s violin teacher always talks about the secret world of each person and gahan got interested to find his secret world but nobody had any answers for his questions.
One day their strange neighbour did not back to his house anymore, and he went and he just missed a drawing there. A garden with a shining sun filled with a lot of ripped female and children bodies and full of blood.
Gahan thought that this is his secret world, A hallow world which we believe in a god but we do not know that is god exist or no? Or god is a person fiction to answer our special need or make ourselves more comfortable in crisis moments that we are not alone and someone is with us. But what is the Secret world really ? where is that? This was Gahan’s spotless mind when he was only 15 years old.
One day a man came from Vienna and Gahan’s Mother, Rosa felt in love with him, a 47 years old man that had a music group in Vienna and he had a strong respect in Vienna and around there, Of course he was a rich man. Rosa married to him and she brought Gahan with herself to a new world. A new view. Felt down from down to top! This is the best description for Gahan’s situation in those days. Gahan was belong to a rich family now!
III
Alone In the Dark
How does it feeling? To be?! It was hard for Gahan to be. He was alone in the dark; he lost himself in a colourful life. Money, money, money. Everyday gahan playing violin for people in his new father group and after that drinking and drinking and s[end time with different woman every night.
Darkest days that gahan had, it was hard for him to remember what who was he?
Gahan was 21 years old and life was different for him those days. In fact it was hard for him, but he did not care about anything except money and his ways.
On day, In a rainy day…Heavy rain he met a man from old childhood memories, it was like a miracle for him, he met their neighbour in Venice, he got so excited that how the man recognized him since time passed very much.
They talked to each other for a while and then the neighbour said that he is on trip to Russia and he asked a question from Gahan that he had no idea to answer that. “Gahan, dear son, what is the meaning of your name?” Gahan had nothing in his mind to say, even a lie or anything else, he said “I really don’t know about this” and he answered “Do not forget who you are “and then he went.
That was a realy big question for Gahan. What was his name meaning?
IV
Iran the Secret World
Gahan studied about Iran histories, He decided to understand more about Iran and the history, he left his family when he was 22 years old to France and there he started to work and he wanted to find Persian people because he heard from other people that some Iranians are came here to study medicine and these kind of things.
After some month that Gahan almost started his new life he found some people from Iran in louver museum and asked them about Iran and the entire situation. The Iranian doctors that Gahan found them explained many things to gahan such as the king of Iran and his works and some people are against to him and some of the best points in the history of Iran and people and so many other things that made Gahan more interesting to visit Iran and go to his origin land.
But it was hard for him to do it, sometimes he thought that this was a wrong decision that he left his family and he should back but suddenly he felt in love with a beautiful girl called Sarah, she was very nice to GAhan and Gahan was crazy for her. He decided to work harder to can request her to marry him but suddenly his life changed again.
V
Winds will carry us everywhere
1958, Gahan received a letter from his mother, a letter full of tragedy words. His mother was attached by heart attack and she was about to die and also her husband left her few month ago and her children was with her still. Gahan decided to left frence to Germany because her mother living there and Sarah told her that she will wait for Gahan forever!
It was very hard for gahan, but finally he decided to go the Germany. A long trip trip to Gernamny, From France without love. This is Whad Gahan Did, he put all things he had on the side and went to visit her mother in Germany.
When he arrived his mother was dead and only a letter was left from her for Gahan.
A letter with a lot of old memories and two earring which Rosa was keep them as memento from Gahan’s father. Gahan could not return to France and he decided to stay in Germany and continue his mother business which was organizing foods and services for people in cities, in fact it was Rosa’s second husband job.
During cold had a lot of heavy behaviour on people life and labour forces but they have to fight and stand like rocks to be able to pass this crisis situations.
Gahan felt in love with a girl called Fiona and they gor married when gahan was 30 years old and they had a real beautiful life. Gahan went to Russia for a work, but suddenly everything changed.
The Suffering
It was Blufff!!!!!! Gahan went to Russia to began a business with Russian gun seller but in fact that was a underground organization and since they was not working very well for government they wasted Gahan and Russian seller and they went to Prison.
Gahan almost lost everything he had, he had no information from his family and everything he had in Germany and unfortunately there was not any way to runway from those horrible prisons. Until a Russian gambler came to prison and he wanted some employee for Russian roulette.
Gahan took risk and sat on a table with another Russian man to began that game, there was not any way to back, there was no hope to be winner in fact there was not any reason for to be alive since Death only know one thing: better to be alive.
When you put a barrel of a gun on your head, you will see whole of your life in a split second, in fact we live a life time in a split second. Time is relative to observer here.
Gahan was winner, it was unbelievable for him. As contract the Gambler gave Gahan freedom and Gahan tried to make connection with Germany but his wife answered him: THERE WAS NOT ANY GAHAN HERE!
Back To Beginning
Today Gahan living in New York, he painting from his life and selling them every week as much as he cannot because of money because he like to painting and it makes him happy more than everything.
Gahan Believes that humans are like sky, everyday different but in fact all of us have a same colour as each other.